I’ve been trying to decide what I will do for Lent this year. I had lots of grandiose plans & silly ones, but Ash Wednesday is tomorrow – I need to make a decision already! So, I’ve boiled it down to three things:
1. No sweets except on Sundays (except for my birthday which comes very inconveniently during Lent every year – sheesh!). This means that the Girl Scout Cookies I’m getting tomorrow are going into the freezer!
2. Going to bed by 10:00 and getting up at 6:00 every day (except Sunday – I can sleep in until 7:30 on Sunday). I’m not going to make myself promise to DO anything at 6:00, but I need to be out of bed by then. This is in an effort to get myself into a routine where I get more regular sleep. I’ve felt really sleep deprived lately.
3. Praying with my Episcopal rosary every night.
I’m also going to try to limit Facebook to a certain timeframe each night, but I want that to be more of a gradual lifestyle change than a Lenten observance.
So, how do these directives help me observe Lent? I’m going to test the theory that there is freedom in structure – that in creating this routine I can let go of what I ought to do, & in the vacuum created by “ought’s” absence I can find my way to myself again. Because maybe it’s just February, or maybe it’s self-disdain, or maybe it’s a dearth of estrogen, or maybe it’s because I’m almost 48 (48!), but I find myself staring off into space a lot lately, wordless, thoughtless…
Wow, just in the process of trying to write this post I’ve caught myself several times staring out the window thinking, “floaty clouds…” I’m thinking that shaking things up by pinning things down will be a nice change for me. I’ll let you know how it’s going!