Showing posts with label Cancer. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Cancer. Show all posts

Sunday, January 26, 2020

2020 Project 365 – Week Four


Why is it that a “short” work week seems longer than usual? Someone asked if it was because I was trying to fit more work into fewer days, but that wasn’t really the case. I think it’s because I am so naturally slothful that it only takes one holiday for me to get out of the habit of work.
Sunday, January 19th                                                   
We had a reception for our pastor to wish him well as he moves back home to Pennsylvania. We’ll miss him & his family!


Monday, January 20th                    
My dad & Sue gave me the crocheted tablecloth that my mother bought when she & my grandmother visited me in Zambia in 1988. That trip was such a HUGE thing for her to do. I’m not sure I ever really grasped how big it was. I have a lot of memories from the trip, but this one, from when she bought this tablecloth, makes me smile the most: “...when I took them to the market in Victoria Falls, Mom pulled out U.S. $ & the little ladies there went crazy—‘Come here amai—I have some beautiful goods here!’ I told Mom that it was illegal to spend American money here & the ladies just laughed and laughed. They enjoyed seeing me scold my mother.” She’s been gone almost 15 years now. Miss you Momcat ðŸ˜­❤ #fuckcancer


Tuesday, January 21st                                                          
Our winter has been so mild that this is the first hat appearance of the year.


Poor Dr. M had to go out in the cold too! Isn’t he the cutest thing? 


Wednesday, January 22nd                                                   
I took this picture to confirm what I suspected. As my face implies, I’m not too happy with this outfit. It’s the stockings – I really need to go shopping for things to put on my feet!


Thursday, January 23rd    
The wonders of technology. Our church council had a meeting with a potential temporary interim pastor. I wore my new Christmas pajamas so this is now my favorite way to have a meeting.


Friday, January 24th                                                                
Song sparrow serenade…


Saturday, January 25th               
Cardinal & chipping sparrows, eating in harmony.


My second video conference of the week - book club with my Ohio friends. I was a little fixated on the food that they were eating – wraps & cupcakes. Next month I’m going to have to provide my own self with snacks!


I have about four crochet projects going on, but have you seen any photos of me working on them? No you have not. I PROMISED myself not to fluff around all year & then have to work like a crazy person before Christmas. But I am a terrible listener. Maybe I need to block out time on my calendar. Will that really work? Stay tuned!

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

What the What?

I didn't actually feel all that confident.
Had to be talked down off the ledge a few times.
And yet, secretly, in my heart of hearts
I thought that there was NO WAY.

And yet, way.

I can't really froth at the mouth in this space (I have family who read this whose consciences are apparently vastly different from mine. They are not surprised by this.). But I just want to say this: I got about four hours of very restless sleep last night. And as I tossed and turned, I realized that I felt the exact same way that I did when I found out that my mother's cancer had spread. And just like then, I think I'm going to grieve for a bit and then get back up and keep trying to make the world a better place.

Sunday, April 27, 2014

2014 Project 365 – Week Seventeen



With all the lovely weather we’ve been having I’m counting down until vacation… and I need to start adding walking to the biking I’m doing every day.

Sunday, April 20th       
Happy Easter! Our church was lovely this morning.


Dr. M saw the Easter Bunny in a neighbor’s yard. Heh.


The Daily Bike.


Monday, April 21st
Part of my lunch for the day.


Red-winged blackbirds!


Some sort of plane that Dr. M saw.


The Daily Bike (which was a really really short one since my dress kept flying up – oops!).


Tuesday, April 22nd            
Dr. M took pictures of some gorgeous flowers today! Here are just a few.


The Daily Bike.


Wednesday, April 23rd
Here is a tale of big hair. I had the bright idea to sleep in curlers, but the result was a little bit out of control at first. But as usual, it had calmed down considerably by the time I left for work (& in fact no one at work commented on my hair so I think it just mostly looked normal – ha!).



Tree swallow – Dr. M was pretty excited when he saw it!


It was Administrative Professionals Day. I gave away most of my goodies, but I still had plenty to munch on for a few days.


The Daily Bike


Thursday, April 24th      
The puzzle is coming along. And I haven’t really been cursing it like I thought I would!


Dr. M’s university always celebrates Shakespeare’s birthday. One of the students dressed as a fool & Dr. M wore his Renaissance costume for the occasion.


The Daily Bike.


Friday, April 25th
The Daily Bike.


Dr. M & I participated in his school’s Relay for Life event. Last year was SO cold & miserable, but this year was really nice.


Saturday, April 26th  
The Daily Bike.


Dr. M stalked the backyard critters. They was lots of courting going on – ‘tis the season.


Have a great week!

Most of our photos are taken with a 12 megapixel Nikon D5000 DSLR, using a 55-200mm zoom lens. This is the camera that Dr. M takes with him most days. He also takes pictures with our old reliable 7 megapixel Canon Powershot A710.  The Bug uses our new Nikon Coolpix S6200 most of the time. If you’re interested in which camera was used for a particular shot, just ask!

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Relay for Life


It’s a list I hold in my heart. Slim, Nadine, MaryAnn, Jeanine, Barry, an 18 year old girl from Kentucky for whom I prayed for two years, Lee, Ruth, Denise, Kathy…  these are the ones who’ve left us. And then there are the ones who are still here, maybe in remission, maybe still fighting, but always & forever living in its shadow. Sherri, Jenny, Bev, Terri, Kate… I am one person, with a smallish sphere of friends, (and a terrible memory – I know there are folks I’ve left off this list!). Let’s multiply me by a number too large for me to contemplate and then imagine how many people those folks know who have been affected by cancer.

I can’t really. I really can’t.

Dr. M & I are participating in his school’s Relay for Life event on Friday night, with the department of Social and Behavioral Sciences (they call themselves the Social Deviants). It’s gonna be chilly, and we’ll be there until midnight. But it’s such a small effort on our part. We’ll be laughing and mourning, walking and resting, eating and drinking, and then we’ll drive an hour home.  Piece of cake. (ooh I hope there IS cake!). It kind of sounds like a wake – maybe if we all do this often enough it will be a wake – for cancer. Boo yah!

Dr. M & I have already met our modest goals – but if you’re interested in helping out send me an email. Thanks!


Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Prayer Shawl


Unable to articulate
the prayer of my heart
my fingers fly
Single stitch
Chain chain chain
Double stitch
Double stitch
Double stitch
Yarn over and over
until fear and rage
turn into love

This shawl is going out to a friend, a breast cancer survivor, who is now in treatment for colon cancer. 


Thursday, February 2, 2012

Just Because...

Bev, 2011

Speaking of being controversial, here’s a guest post from my friend Bev. Actually, I read it on her facebook page this morning & asked if I could steal it. I thought that it would be appropriate in light of the decision that the Susan G. Komen Foundation made to defund Planned Parenthood.

Bev & I went to high school together & when we reconnected on facebook I learned that she is a breast cancer survivor. She’s a fabulous feisty friend, who wants to save the world and her own life. She’s also a fabulous artist – go here to check out her work. And buy something! Her current job status is “Environmental Activist at Indentured to Breast Cancer”

She wrote this for her running community in 2009. (The emphasis added is mine)

I see it everywhere I go. It’s a race for something….

In 1996, shortly after my 2nd child was born, I realized there was a time-bomb in me. At 33, it didn’t have a name yet, but it got me running. It started with entering a local road race. I had so much fun that I wanted more. I lived in a small town and road races were few and far between. So, I found myself driving an hour to Charlotte, NC for the chance to run more races.

I didn’t care what for. I wanted that coveted prize – the T-shirt! Okay, when I got edged out on an age group award, I became obsessed. But admit it! We all do. We all stand around with our buds to the end to see if we got it. We have all checked with race chairs to make sure our times were right. But that’s what we do! We run in the rain, hot sun and slushy snow for a chance at the 3rd place medal. I couldn’t wait to be a master runner because there’re more chances to go home with something!

I found myself running for everything imaginable. But I never imagined any of it would ever affect me.

Then it happened. I was diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 35. One of my running buddies said, “You’ll have to run one of those races now where they hand out pink hats.”

What? A pink hat? I need to get me one of those! So, with the power of the Internet, I found one! A race that vowed to find a cure for breast cancer. And I would get a pink cap! Sign me up! Six weeks after a mastectomy, I drove the kids and myself to Raleigh to run in my first Race for the Cure. I stayed overnight with cousin Joel and the adventure began. The next day, my world changed forever. I won! I won 1st place breast cancer survivor!

You know I was hooked! I have two containers of T-shirts from everywhere to prove it!

That was 10 years ago, and though I must say, there have been some advances, changes in theories, enlightenments that have lead to pink ribbons on everything you can imagine, and scores of runners, walkers, fundraiser and even MEN, yes, MEN, adorned in pink, not much has changed. I am a runner who had t-shirt envy. Now that I’ve run out of storage for my t-shirts, and I have a few medals strung with pink rather than red, white and blue, I need another motive to run through slushy, cold water running down the curb. You know. The kind that soaks your entire shoe and makes the rest of your run miserable.

Don’t get me wrong. We all owe a lot to everyone who pinned a bib onto that t-shirt. But advances in treatment and detection of this ailment are not doing what we first embarked to do – find a cure! I have since learned that the pink ribbon and Breast Cancer Awareness Month are both ingenious marketing ideas by companies wanting to further their cause. Although today it stands as a symbol of the stalwart and gallant women, and men, affected by this disease, full of stories that tug at your heart, it is a well designed strategy invented by companies looking for product promotion, better known as cause related marketing. The goal of finding a cure is somehow masked by this flurry of pink.

I live in the real world. It is a hard blow to someone who is looking with child-like wonder at the pomp and circumstance, delighting in the participation. But after the last water bottle is picked up and the volunteers are gathered from the intersections, we still have a disease that is life-threatening. We are still burdened with a long-term illness that we’ll have to continue to provide for in terms of medical care and costs. That’s a lot of t-shirts on the shelf. They just remind me, day in and day out, that the game of Russian roulette with insurance, medical bills and rogue cancer cells is still on. Which one will get me first?

This tends to get me thinking along the lines of prevention. It is time we dug out that relict saying, “An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure.” Wow. How much have we given to that cure?

Is it not time we got back to basics and started looking for the prevention? I feel like we, as runners, the leaders of the pack in this evolution of marketing, can help round the corner on redirecting efforts, and not just for breast cancer, but for autism, multiple sclerosis, diabetes, HIV/AIDS, birth defects, and let me go through the closest and all my t-shirts for more reasons.

We can start simply by becoming aware of our environment? What is in our drinking water? What are we doing to our lawns and homes that affect our water sources? What chemicals have we become dependent on that are more for convenience? What are we exposing our children to for the perfect lawn? The perfect apple? The perfect home?

Is it worth all this to prevent a weed? To prevent a bug? To prevent a germ?

Hey, we as runners should say we want to prevent (insert disease or condition of your choice), and until you start to seriously consider this, we don’t want your t-shirt.

After all, would it not be nice to pass me on a trail wearing a t-shirt that says, “Fun Run Just Because”?

2026 Project 365 – Week Thirty-five

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