I’ve been having such a crisis of self-confidence lately. Everything I write seems to be drivel. Additionally I seem to have some sort of sinus thing going on that makes me feel extra spacey (note the word “extra” – there’s usually some amount of spacey-ness in my head at all times). My poetry is vacuous (except for my Christmas poem, which is a sledge-hammer – just what everyone wants for Christmas) and my comments on posts are bleh and I should just quit writing altogether. Ha – you should be so lucky!
I’m not writing this to garner compliments or sympathy – I would not believe you if you wrote them. I just need to write out the feeling in case that helps make it go away. Maybe in April – because if it’s the sinus thing I think that feeling is here to stay until they stop salting the roads up here.
Here’s another very important issue going on right now: since I had my hair cut it doesn’t know where it lives anymore. On the right side of my head? On the left side? Mostly on one side or the other with some outliers straggling into my face? And what is the deal with these bangs? Were it not winter I would be heading back to the salon & saying, “Pixie please!” Even if a pixie would make me look like a pin head.
I’m mostly ready for Christmas. I had one great idea that will have to wait until next year (calendars made with our photos). I waited too late & now I don’t have time to execute. I’ll put it on my calendar at the beginning of November next year. Hmm – maybe for Dr. M I will make a calendar with all the pictures I’ve taken of myself this past year. Now that would be entertaining. Or mortifying.
Well, I need to wrap this up so I can go make insipid comments on other peoples’ blogs. Have a great day everyone!
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I love that you have the label "miasma" for this post. That's a word not seen very often!
ReplyDeleteI can relate to the blehs and the blahs. I seem to have nothing to say these days, which is why I'm not posting much myself.
Hope your day, your blehs, find some light.
I have the spacey head thing too! It's partly why I don't drive cars unless I really have to. I have a poem about it of course. At least one...
ReplyDeleteWriting is all ups and downs (for me anyway). Days you love it, days you hate it and wish you didn't feel the need to do it at all (how liberating to not feel that need!). It must be nice to just be a cheerleader or something...
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I may have a suggestion for your sinuses--check your indoor humidity. It' may be too low. That's the bane of the northerner's indoor winter existence.
ReplyDeleteThe calendar is a great idea, especially utilizing all those beautiful photos you seem to snag.
That's a great idea Rudee - we usually keep a humidifier going in winter but haven't pulled it out yet this year.
ReplyDeleteWell, I'm not a big poetry fan in general so I'm enjoying your spaciness, extra or not.
ReplyDeletegood luck on your agenda.
ReplyDeletehave a lovely Monday.
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Don't feel bad. I had someone comment on one of my poems yesterday that they thought I had gone blonde!!!!!!!!!! I write a poem everyday sometimes more than one and this past Friday, for the first time in over a year since I started writing, I didn't. Strangely enough the world did not end, I am still breathing and I lived to write another day........:)
ReplyDeleteYou capture what daily life is all about, our meandering lives go on.
ReplyDeleteI know that feeling all too well. It's one of the reasons I haven't joined the Poetry Bus in ages - everything I write poetry wise is rubbish. But we must soldier on. There's a really good phrase I once heard: inspiration may not turn up, but you should. Inspiration will come again and, in fact, I've really enjoyed reading this entry of yours because it touches on something close to my owm experience. Keep on writing!
ReplyDeleteEven when you are feeling crappy, you crack me up my friend. Does that count as good words? :c)
ReplyDeleteSorry to be so insipid and unsympathetic, but you made me laugh!
ReplyDeleteOh Dana, I am right there with you. I feel a lot better than I did, but I still feel extra spacey. and nothing I write seems worth reading.
ReplyDeleteAND I love your calender idea.
I hope you feel better for Christmas.
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Dear The Bug,
ReplyDeleteI don't notice any insipidity. I think it's the lingering cold. The humidity idea is a good one. So is orange juice and echinacia.
Are you taking a cold medicine? It can disrupt your sleep or even take on the same symptoms as the cold.
Maybe you just need a backrub.
Take care of yourself,
Ann T.