The Score

I didn’t date in high school. Looking back I’m not really sure why. Lack of makeup? Nose in a book? Sending out, “yikes don’t even LOOK at me!” vibes? Possibly. I should ask some of those guys who are now my facebook friends. But maybe I don’t want to know.

Anyway, at some point I became convinced that I would end up alone. I majored in accounting instead of English so I could better support myself. Not to say I didn’t have fun in college once I finally started dating, but I still felt very solitary.

When I met Dr. M at seminary I was pretty sure we’d never date. He was too nice for me. I didn’t want the responsibility of hurting him. But he was a great friend, so we started hanging out together. And then friend turned into something more.

It was the oddest thing -
how you crept
into my heart
and shut the door.
I didn’t even notice
until the lock had
already turned.
I was bemused
by the whole thing.
Probably bewitched
and bothered too.
That was over 20
years ago and
you are still
just here just here
and I am still
astounded
by my luck.

Happy 20th Anniversary Dear Heart